So a situation came up the other day which I feel bad about but at the same time I really don’t.

I was walking into my locked/secured building and I see my old neighbor approaching the door aswell. So I go up to the door, unlock, walk in. The old neighbor (whom I’ve helped out a lot in my day) is still like 25 feet away from the door and walking .00002 mph with is walker. Now I’ve waited for him before and he’s always said “no, you go ahead, I don’t want you to have a birthday while waiting for me”. So this time I just walked right in. I feel bad because I didn’t even acknowledge him. Am I supposed to wait around and hold the door open just to be turned away again so it looks like I’m helpful? Maybe he didn’t even care. Maybe I just added to the ever growing list of why some people think I’m an asshole…

On another note, job searching is the most painful, ass backwards situation ever. 2-3 hours a night, every night for a couple of weeks and I’m nowhere. There are so many reasons to blame it on it’s hard to pin point who’s at fault, the economy? cities i’m looking in? my resume? me being in a different state then i’m applying? fuck?

Also since I’m having trouble finding a new job, it seems my current job is really getting fucked. People giving me trouble, bosses, 3x as much work as normal, etc. It’s really upsetting so I’m skipping out on work early and going to Des Moines, maybe. Depending on level of laziness…